Feeling A Little Discombobulated Lately

Discombobulated is a word, right?

Well, if it isn’t, it should be, because it describes the state of my brain at the moment!

How about you? Are you hanging in there with the approaching holiday season and daily life mixed into it or are you feeling discombobulated as well?

Let me explain the current discombobulation.

In my last post, I was on an exciting adventure of starting an Etsy Shop, taking a writing/publishing class, and editing my book before sending it to a real editor, to be edited. You get the idea. 🙂

Since then, a few things have gone a little wonky.

To start with, there have been many hiccups with the bank getting all the things done, that they were supposed to get done, for my business account. Important things like my checks and debit card didn’t get ordered, I didn’t receive my paperwork for my account because they didn’t type my correct email, links were not sent to me to open an on-line banking account, and the list goes on.

On top of the two weeks delay, that has turned into a month delay, I can’t open my Etsy Shop until I get my debit card. I wouldn’t be quite so frustrated; except I am missing out on the holiday shoppers at the moment.

So, here is a word to the wise. Never open a business checking account, on Halloween, with a person that has an all-glass office. An office, that looks out at the lobby, where a classroom of kids were trick or treating with the employees, who were also all dressed up, and loudly interacting with the little trick or treaters. I really think he just wanted to be out with the fun and not opening the 500th business account of his career. I mean, who can blame him.

So, I wait.

While waiting, I have been working my way through the on-line publishing course and learning tons of information, not only about publishing, but about running a small business as well. On the flip side, I am also struggling with figuring out all the steps to load the programs on the computer, that are needed for the class. It can end up taking a few hours, while pulling my hair out, to figure out what they are talking about.

Old brain, new tricks. 🙂

As far as my own book, the editing process is going well. It just takes time. This is my fourth time doing a read through and tweaking and retweeting. It is a process that is not done quickly. While I work through the process of writing a book, a few thoughts have run through my mind:

I have a deep appreciation for anyone that has written a book!

I have even more of an appreciation for someone that wants to go through the process more than once. Kind of like going through labor and deciding you really do want another child a couple of years later.

When I visit a bookstore, I can’t believe how many people have chosen to undertake the process of writing a book!

Maybe you are one of them.

I am thankful I have had the opportunity and the encouragement to write my book and plan to see it through to its birth. A book birth, so to speak.

On a side note, I also decided that it would be a good idea to make most of my Christmas gifts this year, I mean, why not, right……….

So why am I so discombobulated you ask?

Well, my autistic brain is having a bit of a time organizing all the pans on the fire. It has had thirty years of a rigidly organized nursing day, and now I have completely pivoted away from nursing to a not so externally imposed rigidly organized day. It takes time trying to navigate a new path. A path that will find its flow in time.

Here is a glimpse of the sorting of the metaphorical pans on the fire, all while trying not to have anything catch fire, run dry, or boil over.

Today, started like a normal day. I woke up, made coffee, let the dog out, feed the dog, and drank my coffee. Checking the weather app, to see if it would be a good day to slip in some outdoor activities, or just focus on the indoor list, or do both, it was to be a beautiful November fall day.

After eating some oatmeal, I headed upstairs to start on the publishing class, forgetting to take my vitamins. Later I remember my vitamins, ran downstairs to take them and decided to make a second cup of coffee. Halfway through the morning, my second cup of coffee is now cold and sitting in a different room (probably with a fruit fly floating in it), and I am frustrated with trying to figure out something for the publishing class, so I opt to take a break.

I start thinking about the call I got from my sister, a couple of days ago, who very wisely suggested that the items I previously painted, and teacup candles I made would be great to put in the Etsy Shop.

I decide not to take a break but go to the basement and bring the items upstairs to where I am housing my other Etsy Shop products. I unload them from the boxes, get them sorted and start taking some cute pictures of the teacup candles when a thought crosses my mind.

Here I am surrounded by, and taking pictures of, painted items and teacup candles that I have no shipping materials for. That brings the process to a halt. I can’t put them in my shop until I can mail them.

I look over at the shipping material set up to mail my eco-printed scarves and baby onesies in, (the cutest pink padded, waterproof, and eco-friendly envelopes), but alas this will not work for the items now sitting around me on the floor.

My morning productive time is slipping away, and my brain feels like it is going to explode, so like any normal person would do, I vacuum and mop my entire house.

Continuing to avoid the on-line publishing class, that is patiently waiting for my return, I work on the Christmas gifts in the opposite room. Looking out the window at the sunny afternoon reminds me it was going to be a beautiful day. Rechecking my weather app for the current temperature, I realize it is 2pm and I haven’t eaten lunch. I head downstairs to cut up an apple and cheese, wash the dishes still sitting in the soapy water, take my apple and cheese up to my computer, and write a blog about feeling discombobulated.

Taking a break, to enjoy the beautiful day, Bentley and I went for a run, and he was very happy indeed.

On my break, running with Bentley, I made some executive decisions, because I am the CEO of my business and my life, and that gives me the right to make executive decisions.

1. While my sister’s idea is super awesome, I am going to table the shipping question for fragile items. I need to figure out working with my Etsy shop’s current product first.

2. I can’t move forward with my Etsy shop until I get that blasted debit card. (Maybe tomorrow, if the wind blows in the right direction). Once I get the debit card, I will launch my shop.

4. I will finish the blog post and try to figure out why my “w” key will only print a “w” if I push down on it really hard.

5. I will then finish the day working on my book edit, and maybe have a glass of wine! Yes, most definitely with a glass of wine, it is Friday after all!

It is good being the CEO.